One day when I came to visit Galia I found her very upset, terribly so.
I asked her, “Galia, why are you so serious, so worried? You’re really giving
me heartache.” Galia pointed at the alphabet chart and wrote to me, “Mum, I’m
not happy. I can tell you that I’m not going to live much longer.”
I said to her, “That’s why you’re unhappy? You’re just writing things.
What’s this that you’re writing to me suddenly? Tell me you’re just writing
things.”
I was shocked and started to cry. Galia tried to explain it to me, as if
she were the mother and I were her daughter.
“Mum, don’t cry. I was sent from heaven to get you
to become religious, and you have done that, and now I’ve nearly completed what
I was sent to this world to accomplish. Mum, don’t cry. I’ve been told from
heaven that I can tell you ahead of time so you can prepare yourselves mentally
to be separated from me.”
I was crying but I said to her, “Galia, you can’t leave me. Look at what
a nice book I’ve got ready for you, full of flowers. You made my life blossom,
how can you leave me? You know what, Galia? I’ll pray for you. You’ve taught me
that prayers have enormous power to change everything, even a decree of death,
and especially a mother’s prayers.”
Galia wrote back, “Mum, if your prayers are answered in heaven, it’ll
mean going on living in this poor, pain-wracked body of mine. Mum, please don’t
pray for me.
Mum, you worry all the time. Don’t worry so much because I’m going to a
world that’s totally good. Everything there will be good for me. I’ll have
splendid palaces, surrounded with crystal and brilliant lights, everything
there is so lovely. There are all kinds of wonderful rich fragrances which fill
the whole spiritual space that’s waiting for me there, and all kinds of
exquisite jewellery and marvellous garments and countless flowers and
decorations. It’s all filled with angels who make music and sing, and enormous
joy.
Mum, if any one of those angels were to appear in this world, people
here would die from the ecstasy of seeing him and hearing his song. I have the
privilege of having masses of choirs and angels who sing and give forth
luxurious light, and music and fragrances and flowers and trees. It is all
absolutely sumptuous.”
Rationally, I can understand that it is hard for her in this world,
where her whole existence is full of pain, so I am not praying for her to stay
here. But emotionally it’s hard for me, I’m a mother, I love her, I want to hug
her and kiss her.
Every day I pray to God for the strength to stand up in my trials.
Throughout our lives we undergo trials and tests, and anyone who passes his
tests goes up a grade. Someone who passes his tests goes up to a higher
spiritual level.
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Galia once wrote, “Mum, my tikkun, the process of rectification
for which I was sent to this world, is completed. I’ve merited to get you and
many others to become religious, and I’ve also prevented you from marrying a
man who wasn’t right for you.”
Earlier I told how my husband and I were divorced. Now I have to explain
that when I first started to become religious, I met a religious man and Galia
told me in one of our first sessions, while we were still using the
facilitator, without ever having seen the man, “Mum, don’t marry him.”
I asked her, “Why shouldn’t I marry him?”
She wrote, “He’s not sincere about religion. He looks religious but
really he isn’t. He would bring you down and spoil the process of your becoming
religious.” Then she told me very specific facts about the man. I began to
check into him more carefully and it turned out that everything Galia had told
me about him was totally accurate. If I had married that man, I would have
fallen into a deep pit. Thank God, I was saved from that.
Galia once told me in the presence of a well-known rabbi that heaven
will send me a fine husband, and she even wrote his full name for me. Galia
told me that right after my wedding, she would leave this world, and that she
was hoping I would get married, and that this was a great kindness that was being
done for me and her, to make the separation from her easier for me.
I asked Galia in what way this would be a kindness for her. For myself I
understood, but why for her? She answered that if I were unhappy she would also
be unhappy in her higher world. That was the only unhappiness she would have
there, if I were to be unhappy. If I were unhappy, she would have to leave the
worlds of happiness that were waiting for her, for in those worlds there can
exist only happiness and no anxiety. She would have to wait on the outside
until my troubles were over and then she could return to her world of
happiness. Someone who doesn’t stop mourning for a departed loved one causes
the departed distress in heaven and disturbs his rest. We should make our
departed relatives happy, not unhappy. We should send them mitzvot, by
keeping Shabbat, and by doing good deeds and kindness and charity, saying Tehilim,
studying Torah, Mishna, saying Kaddish, and so on.
“My dear mum, I’m permeated with supreme happiness. Lately I feel like
my whole being is already in the upper worlds, worlds suffused with happiness
for me. I’m filled with joy and rapture, floating through the upper heavens
with the souls of tzaddikim in absolute euphoric bliss. I’m so removed
from the material world that I’m barely aware of my body. I’m excited and glad
to leave all the terrible suffering which has been my lot throughout my life
here in the world with all the pain and loneliness I’ve endured. You’re the one
who saved me with your love and your tremendous caring for me. You gave me an
opening of light, a window for the sun to break through and send me such
smiling, caressing rays. Mum, I’ll never leave you, I’m just leaving my weary,
aching body. My soul won’t leave you even for an instant. Spiritually, we’ll be
together all the time.
Mum, don’t let yourself get too sad about our separation, which is so
close and inevitable. Everything I’ve done to prepare you has helped you a lot.
And your upcoming marriage will be the final preparation for our unavoidable
separation. You should know that all the terrible suffering I’ve had all my
life here was sweeter than honey just to be able to see you in your present
situation, my dear mum.
Don’t have any illusions or any false hopes about me. They’ll only add
to your sadness. There’s no hope for any change at all. Everything concerning
me has been sealed. Be happy that I’ve finished the job I was given here, that
I’ve completed all my assignments in the best possible fashion, and even with
great distinction. If you get a grip on yourself and recover quickly, I’ll be
able to ascend very soon to the very high worlds which are waiting for me and
occupy the place which is ready for me. Great happiness awaits me. The tzaddikim
will receive me with enormous joy, and there I’ll begin my real life.
Mum, if you were to take all the happiness everyone has ever experienced
in this world from the beginning of history until the present and somehow put
it all into one big pile, that pile would be minuscule compared to just one
moment of the happiness that’s waiting for me in the upper worlds. I hope I’ve
managed to give you some picture of what I’m talking about.
Thank God, I’ve succeeded in my tasks with enormous distinction, and
thanks also to you. I’m happy to be leaving this world so soon. If you get over
it quickly, you’ll free me to achieve my happiness.
You are my one love here in this world. You are my saviour, you are my
comfort, you are the only one I’ve found in my life here, which has been so
difficult and so wretched. You are the relief and the balm for all my ills and
all my grief. You are true to me. You’ve never abandoned me for an instant.
Your love buoyed my soul and my spirits and gave me enormous strength. Through
all the heavy black clouds that covered my skies, now and then, a warm, loving
ray of sunlight broke through. And you, my dear mum, you are my ray of sunlight
which penetrates through to me and warms me and refreshes my entire soul and
spirit.
My dear mum, I ask only that you not disappoint me. If you slip into
depression, that will make me very unhappy in the high heavens. You’ll have to
understand for yourself all the lovely things you say about me in your lectures
and you’ll have to come to terms with them. It’ll be a big test of your faith,
but heaven has given you a long and thorough preparation and you’ve already
been given the tools you need to cope with this, so use them properly.
My dear mum, I pray all the time for God to give you a lot of strength,
to make it easy for you to cope with your grief and for it to pass quickly. The
understanding you’ve acquired about the soul and its departure from the world,
and the new and happier life that’s waiting for it in the upper worlds, all
this will lighten your pain. The books you’ve written about me will help you in
difficult times -- read them and you’ll find comfort for your grieving soul.
I’m glad I’m being let out of the cage of life and being allowed to
spread my wings and soar up to realms of infinite happiness and true freedom,
to the world which is entirely good.
Mum, I ask you not to delay me even a moment, and when my last day comes
and my last moments with you, just radiate love and serenity. Tell me that you
know how much good is waiting for me immediately in the very high worlds. I’ve
merited to enormous happiness and the world that’s waiting for me is full of
song, of freedom, of delight, of rejoicing and gaiety, of laughter and love, of
community, fraternity, peace and serenity, and all kinds of good things that
you can’t begin to imagine as long as you’re confined in a physical body. Mum,
even though we didn’t have the merit of spending all our time together in this
world, after a hundred and twenty years, with God’s help, we will stay together
in the upper worlds for all eternity.
My
beloved mother, it’s all over. The end of my suffering is coming very soon.
Don’t be so sad. You’re being given a lot of time to get used to the idea that
I’ll soon be leaving and won’t be with you any more. I pray for you to succeed
in all your not so easy tasks; and to be happy and tranquil all your life; and
to get married soon with your true partner, and also that I may finally be
liberated from the difficult task which has been placed on me. I thank and praise
the Ruler Of The World for the privilege He has given of succeeding in my
mission and for the privilege I’ve had in guiding you and communicating with
you on behalf of my beloved Jewish people. Be at peace, my beloved mum. You are
blessed to God, Creator of heaven and earth.
Your Galia, who loves you.”